I was thinking about my children and how my actions as their mother effects them and I had an epiphany. First let me give you a progression of my thoughts. Every morning I thank God for the new day and I think "Today I will say kind words and/or I will stop what I am doing and do something with this child or that." Then every night I pray God forgive me, I failed again. Often times I think "Oh Boy they will be in therapy for that one." I think about my mother and the things she said and did or the things she didn't say or do. I know I could blame my mom for a lot but I don't. Why should I? She did the best she could. I have been responsible for my actions for more years of my life now than when she was responsible for me. With that in mind I realized that as long as I do the best I can, all will be O.K. I don't make my mom responsible for my adult actions therefore my kids, hopefully, won't hold me accountable for theirs. I say they are God's He made them and I am starting to believe that. I am only a steward. Whether I am a good or bad steward I will ultimately be held accountable for but who they become will be their responsibilities. I am not, of course, going to shrink from this awesome task at hand. I am just realizing that I can't take what they become personal. Good or bad. So I will continue to wake up every morning, thank God for the new day and ask for His help in caring for these most precious of gifts. And I am certain I will go to bed every night asking Him for His forgiveness.